The Self in a Social World

L. I am but a mass of tanned skin, black-brown hair, intimidating eyes, relatively normal features, and limbs and extremities of regular length stuck onto a body of less than average height with a slight belly to match. I open never seen myself as physic ally competent, exactly, nor do I see myself as someone head-turning gorgeous like a lot of my friends are. There are a lot of things about me that I want to desperately change in a physical sense, because really, I am nonentity above typical. Regular clime swings are a norm for me, hormonal imbalance or none, though I ant give tongue to Im emotionally unstable.You might say Im sensitive Im easily touched, easily ticked off, easily pleased, easily hurt. I slope to be intense and extreme with my emotions, and very vocal about it too. Without a venting outlet, my emotions may be easily displaced. My mood is often dangerous and difficult to control, like wildfire. Sometimes, I think of myself as a mirror how I be gravel depend s on the flock Im with. If hes the shy type, Im the shy type. If shes bubbly and talkative, then thats me as well. The only time this doesnt work is when the person Im with is a loud and obnoxious ass.Normally when there are multitude of people I dont jazz, be it walking around the Magic complex or sitting in a classroom full of people I dont know, Im very guarded and conscious of my actions, making me assist cold and quiet sometimes. This stems from my intense fear of public embarrassment, I think. But once Vie settled in a little niche, especially with the people who are close to me, the loud, wild and sometimes unashamed little monster in facial expression of me get alongs out with a vengeance. He. Im not exactly a socially-awkward person, nor am I totally socially-adept.Im either mainstream nor hipster, trendsetter nor wallflower either. Truth is, Im really just somewhere in between all that. And I like where I am. Im not the type to be easily swayed by sweet trends, hab its, practices and opinions, sans policy-making opinions because I am so pathetically apathetic on those matters. Only in recent long time have I begun to be as friendly and cordial as I can to new people I meet. I often try to keep my mood and behavior in learn when Im with my friends as well, because even though they know about it, I dont want to show them the ugly side of me that I only how myself.Now, even if I didnt graduate as the class valedictorian and simply do it with a humble Honorable Mention medal, that hasnt stopped me from thinking of myself as fairly smart. I have intelligent parents and relatives and I think thats influenced me plenty. I do read and write a lot. I find fault up a lot of things from books and movies and my father to be able to do those well, so much that I was able to conquer my fear of public speaking. Although it doesnt apply all the time, I do pick up on things rather easily, making schoolwork lighter for me than most of my friends think so.St ill, I dont think that passing of myself in this matter. I am not special, and again, nothing above typical. II. Physical 1 . ) Physically fit 3. ) Attractive 4. ) Has dimples Emotional 1 . ) Emotionally stable 2. ) Intense with her feelings 3. ) Short-tempered 4. ) Sensitive 5. ) Happy-go-lucky behavioral 1 Careful 2. ) Competitive 3. ) Energetic 4. ) Perfectionist Social 1 Friendly 2. ) Sociable 3. ) May come off as intimidating and difficult to approach Cognitive 1 . Above average 2. ) skilful 3. ) Witty 4. ) Competitive Ill.For the Physical aspect of the survey, to everything aside from the typical average height, brown shoulder-length hair, I say WHAT? I was honestly laughing at the number of people who responded with physically fit and sexy, because not only is one of them awkward to read, I also dont find the other one true at all. I always berate myself for my thighs and my arms and my belly that seem to be growing a hundred miles per hour. The responses in the survey ma ke me think one of two things 1 . Maybe its all in my head after all or 2. Theyre Just saying that because they dont want to make me feel bad. And to be honest, the due south one seems a lot more plausible to me. Because, really, I cant see this body as physically fit at all. Other than that, almost everything else I read off the survey answers were pretty much things Im aware(p) of or I already knew about myself. It makes me think how transparent I really am of a person, even to people I havent been friends with for over a year. This fact assures me somehow, and I seem to take it as a good thing.Since Vie always hated people who are fake and plastic, two-faced people who only care about looking good in front of other people, its good to know that people are seeing me as I really am, even the rough spots and the loathsomeness sides, and that Im not one of those people I absolutely loathe. Its nice to know I havent completely turned into the person I swore Id never become. Youd p robably expect me to say something like This survey activity has subject my eyes and inspired me to change, etc. but no, thats the exact opposite of what Vie realized.I realized that theres really nothing to change after all. I already like everything myself, my short-temperateness, my faux icy demeanor, and even my that. Lastly, I give thanks my friends who responded honestly to this survey. I got to see how other people saw me, something Vie always been curious about, and I learned, based on how fast I ran out of survey forms, how many people I actually consider as friends who also see me the same way. Also, based on the fact that Im still friends with these people, I realized how much theyve accepted me, despite all my shortcomings as a person and as a friend.